April 28, 2007

• Before I get in to anything else here I want to let everyone that I know that it is Queen Tina’s Birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY my friend hope you have a wonderful day and have many many more!

  

  I had a real ruff night last night. Was up all night sick. I know it is from the pain pills. I try not to take them till I just cry from the pain in my back. Then I take them the pain is gone but then I am sick. Darned if I do and darned if I don’t. You know what I mean. That will soon be over. I start my Short term disability at work on Tuesday. I go for my surgery on Wednesday for the spinal stimulator. I am nervous and excited at the same time. Again I have to be awake for the surgery so I can let the doctors know when I feel the stimulation. I will be sedated but this time instead of implanting it by doing an epidural, The Dr. will actually have to cut open my back. Scary knowing that I will be awake!!

  I could actually be back to work in three days but, I have to go back for wound check and to have the doctor check how the unit is working several times. And Where I work at a major cell phone company (they just changed there name). They do not accept doctor notes for anything. And they will walk you out for attendance. Just last week 19 people were walked out and one of the guys was with the company for 10 years. So….. I have to take 2 weeks of disability. Fine by me I will be paid for that.

  Things are going great over at my Dads house. The bills are being paid on time and in full and there has been so much work done. My friend who is taking over the mortgage has tore out the WHOLE kitchen. Well actually he gave a crow bar to his girlfriend and told her to have fun she did!

  When I took the check to the finance company just the other day 2 weeks early she said what are you doing here again? I told her that what happens when you have people who pain in full and on time. They are being GREAT there at Citi financial. They all know my Dad and know that he is not a bad person just got mixed in with the wrong people. They always send regards to him. It is amazing all the work that my friends have done on the house. I told them at the finance company that Dad is selling the house but not going to make anything on it. They did say that was too bad. But Sooooooooo much work needs to be done I can not expect them to pay anything other than keep up the payments. I told Dad he should just be glad it will not go in to foreclosure. We came awful close to that when my son was living there because I ran out of my own money to pay the bills for him. I can’t loose my home for them I just can’t.

  I miss him I really do. I would love to know how he is doing and how the grand kids are doing but I am blocked from all of their internet sites so I can’t even find out that way any more but that is ok. I am concentrating on getting my health back any way.

  It just hurts when my youngest son asks what did he do that his brother does not try to call him. What do I tell him? All I can tell him is that pray that some day his brother will be his brother again and call him. I know that some day Chris will want him Mom and you know what I will be there for him. I will always love him he is my son. Some day the LORD will help him let go of his anger when he is ready to let it go.

  Ted, my youngest son had been so busy here at the house lately he does not have much time to think about his brother. In my front yard, there was a flower bed the shape looked like a dog bone. I hated it, it looked just like a bone! Well, Friday I came home from work and found that he re shaped it in to an oval along with made it bigger! He is doing an awesome job on it. I only wish that I could help him with it but again right at this moment my back will not allow it. I told him once he is done with the prep work I will take him to home depot and help him pick out flowers and things to put in it. The only thing he did not touch (which saved his life LOL) was my SEGO PALM. I grew this up from a seed and they grow real slow. They can get HUGE but it take years, and years.

  I will probably not post again till after the surgery is done but if the trail was any clue as to how the permanent stimulator will work I will be back real soon! HUGS to all!

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